Clearing my mind

I recently started therapy due to the suicidal thoughts I have been having and things are going fantastically!!! I love my therapist she is awesome. I was afraid I wouldn't have anything to talk about with her but we definitely fill the time. I am learning so much. I love how non-judgmental she is, I know that is how she should be but it is the first time in my life I have truly experienced that.

Maybe after I finish a few more sessions I will be able to sort out everything good enough to share hear but I feel like I am growing so much through this experience.

I am joining a support group for LGBTQ students here on the recommendation of my therapist. I met with the two lead therapists for group and enjoyed my conversation with them. I think this will be a great way for me to create a path for me to meet other LGBT individuals that will be safe and social. Right now I feel like my gay world only exists online and though I have created many great friendships this way I need real world people to meet with and talk about life.

I have also decided to postpone my final exams to allow more time for studying with everything that has been happening I haven't been able to study as much as I should be. This has been a huge relief for me.

My wife admitted that she wants me to move out ASAP...I am ok with this because we are both ready to move on but we are too poor at the present time. I am applying for jobs like crazy!!! I just submitted an application for a job in Chicago as well as four others but I am hoping for Chicago to come through. Chicago is one of the five cities I would like to live in before I die. Plus there are many gays there!!!

Well back to studying...just wanted to put a few thoughts down to clear my mind.